The only thing wrong with you is there's only one of you.

Allan. Boy. 'Nuff said.
18. JBHS Class of 2010.
University of Sydney.

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Monday, September 12, 2011 @ 10:48 PM

WMP: Shutterbug - Big Boi ft. Cutty
Skype: -
Currently: Catching up on shitloads of overdued uni notes.

Okay I know I haven't been blogging much but that's not due to a lack of events happening in my life LOL Actually the past month and a half has been quite eventful :) It's just I haven't found much time to fit blogging in my schedule regularly :( So why have I suddenly feel the urge to blog right this instant ? As you all know, I'm a deep thinker. I think and contemplate and think some more. What have I been thinking about lately ? Friendships. And sometimes when I don't express some of these thoughts, I feel like it clogs up in my mind and it yields a shitty feeling most times.

The definition of friendship has been redefined time and time again. What factors, what attributes, how long, how understanding .. are some of the questions I bring to the table in considering friendship. Currently being 18, I believe it's still a bit naive to call your friends "true friends" but that's the thing about friendship, it's different for everyone. Why is it that you can meet some people with whom you just instantaneously "click" with ? It's like you can relate to everything they say or think. These people can quickly become close friends or even best friends. So the time factor doesn't apply to friendship then ? Opinions vary.

Okay to avoid a long, endless blabbering post, I'll get to the point of this post. Don't take friendships for granted. EVER. I can't stress this enough. I know I've mentioned it before but I guess it means so much more to me than to some people I know. One of the two worst things a friend can do to me is take me for granted. Ungrateful is probably the word I'm looking for. By no means do I believe I'm the bestest friend for anyone but I do try my best to be a fun and nice guy, someone you want to hang with, someone who has your back. My philosophy is simple: you scratch my back, I'll scratch yours. In other words, you do something for me, I will repay you back. I generally see good in people until they give me a reason not to. So I'm nice to everyone upon first meeting and will continue to be until you give me reasons not to. If I do things for you, I don't exactly EXPECT anything back but simple acknowledgement that you appreciated it. A "thanks" will suffice for me. In regards to friendships, it's one thing I absolutely hate. The other is the whole trust thing.

Just speaking my mind a lil bit. I feel better actually :) Can't wait for Panda Club Wednesdays! This week is Singstar Night at my place :D

ja ne =]

Sunday, July 24, 2011 @ 8:30 PM

iTunes: Heavy Rotation - AKB48
MSN: Jess
Currently: Syncing music onto new iTouch

So today was the day I finally bought myself an Apple product =] I haven't conformed to the Apple society, relax. I still think Windows is better than Macbooks so yeah :D

I am currently configuring my iTunes and guess what the first song I played was ? *looks above LOL

I want to thank Tony for lending me money for it cos I didn't bring enough T.T

I don't feel like blogging too much, I gotta get all this done quickly so I can bring it to uni tmrws =) or else it's gna be a boring train ride =(

ja ne =]

Tuesday, July 19, 2011 @ 1:57 PM

WMP: AKB48 Documentary - The Future 1mm Ahead
Skype: -
Currently: Recovering =)

Ever wondered if concepts like fate or karma exists ? Personally, I think they're just simple concepts to promote goodness in people, you know, "do good things and good things will come back to you" sort of thing. But I'm skeptical, that is, I don't believe in things that don't have scientific foundations. Stuff like fate, karma or even ghosts .. narh I don't believe in any of that.

But sometimes it makes you wonder huh ? Stuff happens to make you think they actually exist =/ Don't worry, I'm not about to freak you out with my paranormal experiences to justify the existence of ghosts LOL I'm talking about shit like fate.

Fate simply means your life is pre-written .. sort of like destiny. That is, your life has been pre-determined by some almighty being. So all in all, it just means you don't have control over your own life and what you do with it. I don't like this concept because simply put, it mindfucks me.

When I'm about to take a major turning point in life, I usually like to plan it out first so there's no unexpected shit that goes down. Quite the opposite to fate actually because I PLAN MY OWN LIFE thank you very much. But I can't tell you how many times I've planned something and "fate" decides to screw it up.

Example. Last year. I wanted her so badly and I was about to make her aware of that. Every time we meet up, it would be just the two of us which couldn't be more perfect for this. So why is it that on this particular night, she decides to bring a tagalong friend ? Okay like I said, I don't believe in fate. But shit like this can't be considered as "coincidence" can it ? Right there, a small part of me started to believe in "fate" and that if it's predetermined by some almighty being, I probably shouldn't mess around with it =/ See what I mean by mindfuck ? =="

This is just one example but its happened to me time and time again =/ and not just under these circumstances as well .. I've come to believe in fate more and more as time goes on but I wonder if I'm just making excuses again.

Do you believe in fate ?

ja ne =]

Wednesday, July 13, 2011 @ 9:57 PM

WMP: -
Skype: -
Currently: Freezing my ass off T.T

I find it ironic that when it's scorching hot during Summer, people want Winter to quickly come and cool them off. And when Winter does come, it's freezing cold and people rapidly yearn for that warm Summer glow once more.

It just goes to show that people take things for granted, even little everyday things like the weather. If you desire for something and get it, hold on to it and never take it for granted. Because sooner or later, it will be lost and you WILL want it back.

"That's just human nature" some people say but really, is it ? Since when did human nature dictate whether we have a choice or not ? Are you saying we have no control over our own lives because "that's just human nature" ?

Certain things in life have lost value in their meaning simply because people take them for granted. This post has nothing to do with love or anything to do with my personal history but it will always be the number thing that has lost most, if not all, of its meaning. We often use it to describe what we like ranging from food to movies .. actually it pretty much covers everything really. With that being said, how is one supposed to differentiate between the level of "love" within a relationship and something completely unrelated nowadays ?

Friendship is another concept that is often taken for granted. Even the word "friend" has lost meaning. Friendship is something that should never be taken for granted. I like to think of myself as a pretty decent friend to those I spent time with and would hate to think I'm not valued in their lives. I value all my friends, some more than others, but still the value is there. Everyone plays a role in making up who we are as an individual and from that, if you don't value your friends, you don't value yourself.

I know the last post said something about my recent depressing posts but I don't think this counts as a depressing post does it ? It's just me, sharing my thoughts. My readers often wonder what prompts me to write these emotive posts from time to time but sometimes it's just me speaking my mind, nothing more =)

ja ne =]

Monday, July 11, 2011 @ 11:43 PM

WMP: Majisuka Gakuen 2 Episode 10
Skype: -
Currently: JDrama session :D

I've been recently informed by a loyal reader that most of my latest posts are all depressing LOL So I'm just lighten things up with a quick positive overview of my life in this post :D

  • BIG THANKS to Viv for getting me a job =) I wont say where cos I'm still not used to people trolling me at work just yet LOL
  • I'm gna take driving seriously now and take 2-3 days to learn how to park and finally go get my P's HAHAHAH
  • MK and I have started on the designs of the shirts!
  • I've been catching up on my JDrama! Mostly Erika ones cos I miss her =(
Things are looking up ne ?

ja ne =)

Wednesday, July 6, 2011 @ 5:58 PM

There are simply no words to describe how I feel right now. Anger is just a word .. rage is also a word. The feeling I have right now cannot be expressed by mere words. One could never understand another's feelings because they're different for everyone. Right now, I'm not feeling anger .. I'm feeling anger.